Long time no see. I'm sorry to hear about how things have progressed. I think it is the disrespect that bothers me the most about my own situation. You are in a very precarious position either way, because the existing relationship is fragile.

What is important to remember is that you are in control of you - and you can choose what you want. You've come a long way, and to open up only to get hurt again will only turn you further off of your M.

So... I think you can continue your GAL activities, try and keep a PMA, and think it over with some friends. Feel free to vent here all you want - but I wouldn't make any long-term decisions without thinking it over a bit.

Move on when you are ready - but be sure that you are ready.

"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."