She wants to be uncommitted, to be free from responsibility to work on herself, to be free to think about and explore possibilities for the future, but at the same time to have me quietly provide support and $ in the background.
Only a effeminate man would go for that!
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.