Well, he kind of doesn't know how to receive a compliment...but then again, he wants constant praise, like a little kid, for everything he does. Like if he makes a steak...he wants to be told how good it is...like 10 times. I'm not kidding. I always compliment him on his food...he's a good cook. But let's say I volunteer a couple of times how good it is, he will KEEP asking. "Do you like it? It's great, isn't it. It's awesome, I'm awesome." He's like that about a LOT of things. But all superficial things come to think of it. We go into the area of "feelings" and he acts differently.
What's different about me? Well, I've been working through a Bible study by Beth Moore that has been so instrumental in God bringing me healing. So, it's spiritual, I'm not trying, it's just coming to a very rock solid place of self-worth, of being defined by the Lord.
I saw this sign in a store that said "Always walk like you're wearing an invisible crown on your head." I thought that was funny, but I thought about being the daughter of a King, and that I don't need to walk with my head down.
This sounds silly...but when H would start getting critical and mean...which naturally leads someone to droop..I'd think, nope, you're wearing a crown. And I started lifting my chin up. My entire posture has changed. Even when he starts I calmly look him straight in the eye and he backs down. Can you believe?
I had a bug bite that wouldn't heal and I mentioned going to the doctor, and he (the hypochondriac) immediately started in saying I didn't want to do that, they'd do tests, that costs money.
Instead of getting furious, or dejected by this amazing devaluing, I stood up straight, looked him in the eye and said...did you just say I shouldn't go see a doctor?
Uh, um, uh...no...well, uh, I mean do whatever you want! You can go to a doctor!
But Coach...it's still a little scary. Because I don't know what's building up inside. It remains to be seen if will be able to resist trying to dominate me. His old weapons don't work anymore though. We'll see if he likes it this way, or if he gets more resourceful.
