It's ok. I know you are right and I decided to pull the plug and go pitch dark already.
It is just tearing my heart out that my babies want their daddy to come home, and he won't. I cannot stand that he says they are the most important thing in his life and yet he won't try to stay married to their mom, which is the most important thing in their life, they want their mommy and daddy to be together.
I feel like a newbie, I am feeling so sad today. I don't know why-- I have seen it coming all along but I knew that the kids and I wanted this to work, we are 3/4 of the equation. Why the hell don't our votes count!!?!
He is so messed up and that is what makes me the most miserable and torn up inside. YOU guys see he is a mess, my pastor sees he is a mess, his friends and family see it, etc etc etc. But I worry most that he will go to his grave never realizing it was HIM all along...that he will blame me until the day he dies. What will that do to my kids to have their dad hate their mom?
