You're lucky I haven't pulled that 2X4 out of my own butt!
I know, you are right. I just need it all to end.
Basically we are in the process where I think he's mourning a little bit. I think he's thinking about how much his life is going to change once she's gone and he won't see her everyday. He still speaks poorly of her but says they'll still be friends. I know better. She's the kind of person who uses folks to get what she can and she moves on. For example, once it became apparent that despite his close relationship with bosses, he could not get her back on TV, she pretty much was done with him.
I think he's having a hard time accepting he was not as much as he thought he was to her, that he was used. I know it's a pride thing and I know he feels stupid. But cruel as it is, that's not my problem. He needed to learn. And it was a humbling learning experience and he has a HUGE ego.
But I also think that while there is sadness it's all ending, I think there's more happiness about it too. It's a chapter he can officially close.
This weekend he set it up so his work kick ball team came to hang out with mine after the tournament. I thought that was pretty big. He showed me a text one of them sent him after ward...."X and I love W! She picked up our tab! And she's so tiny and beautiful!" Nice, butt kissy however, that text means I accomplished and met my goal. H likes when I get along with his co-workers, which is weird because I used to work there too and would get along with these people just fine if he would bring me around them more or vice versa. Do I want to hang out with them all the time? No. But he knows that and is ok with it.
Anyways, now I'm rambling.
I told him that I want to be in an exclusive dating relationship with him. I completely except that's where we are but I want it to be exclusive. He said "maybe". Are you kidding me? I can MAYBE be in an exclusive dating relationship with my HUSBAND? Seriously?
I let it go with the explanation to myself that I can't 'suggest' or 'tell' him what to do right now when it comes to certain things and this is one of them apparently. Punk. He's lucky I still love his dumb ass.
