Thank you so much Dawn, I just posted in your thread to ask if you could come over and take a look.
I just feel that he is throwing everything at me at once and I just can't deal with any more at the moment, my emotions are still so raw and exposed. I am trying to do one thing at a time, but he seems to be wanting everything now and the worst bit is, he is doing absolutely nothing to help, not even helping with packing up the house and he acts like nothing is wrong like he is the good guy.
Funny, when you talked about the bomb coming about 1/2 to 2/3 of the way through, I was only thinking that H got his first jet ski 3 years ago, decision suddenly out of the blue, he had never been interested in boats or anything like that before. It was to be for the "family", about a year after that, suddenly the family weren't being included as much and well the rest is history, it began to consume him bit by bit until we are where we are now.
I feel really down now, I guess that is the rollercoaster ride I am on now until such time as I decide to either get off or keep going. At this point I desperately want to keep going and tell myself it will get worse before it gets better.
