I've found that I do better when I detach, leave him alone, and have no contact...it's just so hard. I miss him so very much.
Everyone goes through that. NC is easier because you no longer have to deal with his drama queen antics. Detachment is easier yet. If it's still hard, and you miss him a lot, you aren't detached yet. Keep working on it; it gets better.
Take care of yourself.
Peace, Dawn
Me 45/H 47, no kids Together since 1985; M/1992 Bomb1 (EA-OW1, age 22) 2001 Bomb2 (EA/PA-OW2, age 22) 10/2007, A continues H left 11/24/08 minimal contact, no legal action http://tinyurl.com/DawnHope1