I actually take an anti-anxiety medication now and it helps immensely!
Yesterday, my h called and left a message saying he loved and missed me and was crying on the phone. I did NOT contact him all day and he finally woke me up at 10:30. He was distant, cold, said I should tell my lawyer to stop the divorce and he wasn't attracted to me. What the heck? Do they all leave mixed messages like that? I've found that I do better when I detach, leave him alone, and have no contact...it's just so hard. I miss him so very much.
Me 55 H 49 Married 21 years No kids bomb 5/09 filed 7/09 divorced and moving forward 5/10