I am keeping my cool. I am being like a piece of smooth jazz.Ha ha!
I have mixed it up and am keeping it unpredictable. At first it felt a bit contrived trying to change up my routine but now it is making life fresh for me. I like it!! And unlike before, H never knows whether I will be in or out. I have taken the certainty of my being at home at predictable times completely out of the mix.
I like to be real and part of my problem was that at first this felt like a chess game where I had to plan strategic moves. And therefore not authentic. I would like to think that I am at the age where I don't have to play games and plan chess moves anymore.So much of DB is strategy until you realise that you were in a rut and needed to get out.
And again, what intrigues us about our S so much now? The unknown. The fact that we know little about what they are up to. The mystery. We spend do much time trying to figure out what is going on with them. So, it is time for us to get a little mysterious. I for one am done with trying to figure them out. Let them figure out stuff for a change.
So, my current modus operandi:
- Be unpredictable in my routine. This is a 180 fromwhic I had slipped a little. - Keep my cool. A continuing 180. I will not comment on alien behaviour. I will give it to the Lord. - Detach, detach, detach but always pleasantly. In my case coldness would only demonstrate that things are getting to me because this is my usual reaction when I am upset. Being pleasant will keep you guessing. - Looking hot is mandatory. And I see you staring at me sometimes. - Keeping the lines of communication open and spending time toegther where possible. This may seem to contradict the detaching directive but it doesn't once it is done in a way that is non pursuing. - Praying always!
