dont want to go home

[Ms Jen]

I'm at work and don't want to go home. I'd be gone all the time if it were just the two of us but I can't do that bc of the kids. So.. we are both in the house, both in the bed, not touching, not talking, and I'm pretending to be upbeat and breezy, but not too available. Awkward? Just a little.

It's been prob 6 months since I posted last- I stupidly thought we were done then. No. His life sucks and our kids are worthless and it is all my fault. Still.

I don't want to go home.

Tell me again not to believe what I hear. Tell me again that I can detach and it's ok and even healthy to do so.

Please.