After a terrific weekend, that ended up with us watching TV and cuddling last night, he tells me this morning that he’s so happy we’re going to be able to be friends after we get divorced. I say “What do you mean?” He says, I’m glad that we will be able to do family stuff and be friendly for D’s sake after I divorce you. I was so blind sided by this and I couldn’t really think for a moment. We had a terrific weekend. He went on to tell me that he’s been trying but there is simply no connection between us and he wants to divorce me because he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. He can’t really say why but he just knows that he no longer trusts me and he needs to go and find a new life.
I was doing so well the past week or so. I really felt he was trying and making an effort. He told me if he had enough money right this minute he would be out the door and divorced as soon as possible. He just simply doesn’t see the pain and devestation that this is going to cause our daughter. How can someone do this? How do I keep going is the face of such insurmountable odds. He made another mediation appointment for next Wed to hammer out the final details so that the paperwork can get filed with the court. He would like to go to counseling tomorrow to just get everything out on the table, etc. I’m not sure but I think my heart may be physically breaking. I’m stitting at work and I’m having trouble breathing. I don’t have my book yet. Please, please tell me what to do? Do I just act like this is no big deal? Like I could care less if he’s going to divorce me? How do I do that? Please advise what the next steps would be in a situation this bleak?
Losing hope….
Gina B
M 43 H 34 D 4 H asked for D on 6/21/09:1st D mediation 7/27;D says he wants to try 8/18; *I will stumble, I will fall down but I will not be moved.(N.Grant)
