LR, I think you have learned in the past what you need to do. I know we've told you about new things to try and hobbies, etc. You seem resitant to new opportunities and such. But the truth of the matter is that what you are going to have to do. You seem to think it won't work. It will. It will occupy you and your mind.
Believe me, I know there are days when I'm doing my yoga, exercising, tennis, out with friends, whatever and my mind just goes to H. I hate it. It always seems to happen when it's my serve. But I get myself back under control....I get my mind back and continue with my deal of the moment.
You have to LR. You have to do this or you're going to sink. She's super pissed at everyone right now, so clear the way. Let her attack everyone but you.
