Thanks for checking in on me. Not much to report. In my skewed, still hopeful, I-believe-in-MLC mind, I still think that H is trying to escape from himself and resist any true feelings he has. He has mentioned several times that he'll be traveling for a week or two at a time - and he has been.
Friend moved out, so he is officially on his own. Spent the entire day on his own with the kids the other day and brought them out for 2 meals - a first! He had called me on their way out to dinner and I considered asking him over to eat, but wasn't making anything he'd like, so didn't offer. Should I have? I thought it was a bit early to be making such gestures. Or maybe I'm just not willing to be rejected...
H still can't say my name - my new name is still "Hey" or a loud "Uh..." until I look his way. At least he's talking to me. Tells me his whereabouts more openly now.
Oh - somewhat newsworthy, if not outdated: I found out that H was on anti-depressants some time back! Not sure if he's still on them. Apparently took them to help him sleep. His ghosts must've been keeping him awake at night. (Good.)
I continue to keep my distance from him during the week. Still too early in the game to be getting excited. What will get me excited: dinners out as a family, calls during the week/for no reason, an invitation to see his new place.
Sorry to hear that you went through a difficult stage of your kids leaving the home. But having been through that depression, at least you can empathize with your H... Hope that he comes to his senses like you were able to. Hang in there.
