I dont care, I really dont what he did when we were separated. Not once did I mention that to him. Everything I write here happened during the time I was in the dark or semi dark:2006-2007
The last file gave me all details about when, how, everything... And I am not snooping anymore. I found 1000 emails, he erased them all from my accounts and his, but I had saved many. I am keeping those.
Dawn, no offense taken but I am ok with lying to him. For more reasons than one.
Ali, in the beginning, he wanted to reconcile. After I found out. I could tell. He kept saying sorry and how she is history. Again and again. How he didnt care whatI told her, as if I was what mattered to him. He even promised his dad she is history and he will make it clear to her. It is pretty obvious they were not doing well. They went from hiding, to looking for apts, to moving in together and then...the begging started. She should DB him.
She complains about his insults,anger, yelling, etc etc. Just like I did. She even tells him that she is giving up the dream of having children to be with him and our kids but he would have to see a therapist for his issues... Welcome to my reality!!! Funny how when the illegal couples, once together without hiding, lose the magic...
I am ok. The worst thing I can do to him is the best thing I can do for me: ignore and "erase" him. That's my plan (for now, LOL).
naej, I know you feel what I feel. You are right. Some things like the fact she constantly puts me down as a lover, hurt badly. But, I cant make love to everybody to prove I am a good lover, or can I?
Feels good to be home. Now I can stop worrying about moving my stuff out of his closet... K
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