A Little Epiphany - (and a newbie delurking)

[Dia]

Hi, all,

I am back at H's. The weekend with the family held the expected amounts of laughter and tears given the situation. We are worried that this will dramatically hasten my grandfather's decline. Nothing to do for that except support him then wait and see.

The dance has already begun with H. He is complimentary, warm, and flirtatious, He was glad to see me, hugged me and cupped my cheek in his hand and told me I was pretty. But I am still sleeping on the couch, which I expected so no big deal.

When he put his hand to my cheek, I turned slightly and kissed the inside of his palm. I meant it as a sweet gesture but he almost immediately dropped his hands to cover his crotch and scurried out of the room. Apparently I still have a dramatic effect on him physically.

He comes to me to initiate conversation and he draws it out. He proactively sits next to me on the couch now. If I cook or clean, he is very appreciative.

Things are very, very good - all things considered. My guess on him not wanting me is the big bed with him is two-fold, ok, maybe three-fold:

1) He thinks he is being loyal and faithful to OW. (I got news for him - OW would already be having seven kinds of hissy fit if she could see how he interacts with me. )

2) He isn't ready for the emotional entanglement sleeping with me would entail.

3) He knows that if I'm there next to him, he eventually won't be able to resist the temptation, so he's heading it off at the pass.

I am handling this with patience and good humor, all of which is greatly helped by the rest of our interactions being so good.

I will see if I can make the rounds today.

Have a great day, everyone.