I agree fully that my need and love for him has contributed to everything as I literally became the doormat over 26 years together.
I am trying to get myself to the point where my day is not affected by his mood, my problem is the emotions are still running wild at the moment and I think until I get my D and I sorted in a house at the end of next week, I probably won't be able to fully get to that point until then, as much as it will kill me when he actually leaves us on that day. That day is going to be hard but I am going to have to pull on every bit of strength I have to remain calm and not get emotional when he goes. My S will be home that day to help me as well.
I am trying very very hard to GAL and show an always happy upbeat Oz, it just isn't coming naturally and easily yet.
I know I'll get there with everyone's guidance and support. I just know that the next week and a bit are going to be tough.
