Hey! I think it should be a good show too. Looking forward to it. I would love to train for the marathon... maybe that'd be a good goal for next year.
Saw OW's FB picture tonight. It's a pix of her with my H and another girl. Suddenly I'm taken back to wondering what was wrong with me.. why he felt he had to leave me and what about a 21 yr old girl makes him happy. I need to re-read DR's section on depression and MLC b/c this guy seems nothing like my H. Praying for compassion tonight and patience. I don't know if we'll ever get back together, but like I said a day or two ago, if God wants us together he will make it happen. If not, then there's a better plan for me. And hard as it is to admit, maybe there's something better in store for my H as well. And I really do want him to be happy.
It frustrates me to string some good days together and then a stupid picture of them together sends me back into my insecurities and doubts. Note to self: stop hunting for his/OW's updates or status. The only purpose it serves is to bring me down and that is counter-productive.
I rearranged the bedroom tonight. I hadn't changed things since H left, so this new look is refreshing. New pillows and less clutter, so it's a peaceful retreat for the end of the day.
K - feeling better; it's good to process through these entries. Any advice or input on MLC's would be welcome but I know that I need to be patient with my S and myself. Focus on me/kids and give H the space he needs to figure things out. Six months is approaching, and apparently the OW is still in the picture. But none of that is within my control. Only myself and my actions.
