Thanks for your message bluerain! Yep, it's good I am GAL, but kind of sad the reason why (upcoming D). I've met some really awesome people, and I find myself very blessed with great friends and my immediate family are fantasticlly supportive as well. I met my now best friend on meetup.com, and I have to start attending more of their events and their D support group because if I met her there, there's got to be other awesome folks I haven't met yet! Plus, I don't just want to burden just 1 friend with my woes, because it is not fair to her.
I am seeing what a jerk my H really is, and it's hard because I still remain an eternal optimist and a teeny, tiny portion of me still hopes and prays that he comes to his senses and decides to work on the marriage, but I doubt it will happen as each day goes by without any change in his behavior. <sigh>. The good thing is that I have decided that I am not accepting this subpar behavior as acceptible anymore, and that's a good thing too. I am a doormat no more!
Thanks for your comments and I wish you the best of luck moving forward.
Me: 36 H: 34 M: 1 yr T: 2 yrs D: filed by H 5/21/09, served 06/08/09, first court date for "maintenance" as well as a plea to restart Marriage Counseling and attend a Marriage workshop 8/24