well, just got off the phone with her. she some how got into talking about our M with me. I dont remember how I think it had to do with her cousin and her friend.... she went on how she felt traped. and her usual list of complaints about the M
well bluerain ...I guess you were right she does not belive I will change or stay changed. she feels that i never cared and it's always going to be the same.... she says thats why she is afraid she will want to get back togeather with me because it will all just fall right back into the same old way and it's too late she already gave up
then she went on to say she admits she is not better yet but she is working on it in her own way. then she said well she admits she wants to be married but she just is not ready yet. I did alot more validating her feelings,
only odd thing is we talked about stuff we both had wanted to do but never did.(did not think the other person wanted to do) now this week we might plan a camping/canoe trip sometime in a month with just the two of us. Nothing for sure but it came up and she suggested we talk it over this week and she can see the girls while we talk. (figure that out!)
