Guys, I have been struggling for a week now. I know I am not moving on and detaching properly with H in my life at present. I don't think I can do this anymore. I either pressure him too much and make myself unhappy in the process or learn to live with it but I am struggling cos ultimately this is allowing him to have a friendship with me on his terms whenever he wants and be with her whenever he wants. I want more than this. I have been at this for two years and I can't do it much more. I am tired and I am sick of being on my own. I was just rude to him and that's not what I wanted but I also think I have to detach completely and let him go. To do this I think I have to tell him so I have a clean break and I allow myself to get on with life. He knows I love him anyway.
