The DB two step

[Dr LOve]

Ok sorry for the delay but I have been busy. I will step back a little.
So son and I went camping. Had a great time. We brought our bikes and went biking on a trail and son could not keep up with me. (Will go into that a little bit later). So while son and I were out looking for meteors that night I called wife.
Me: So how are you doing?
Her: fine I am really enjoying the solitude.
Me: what have you been doing?
Her: washing clothes, working on getting my computer back it order and enjoying the solitude having peace and quiet.
Me: so do you want more solitude?
Her: what do you mean?
Me: do you not like being married?
Her: I did not say that
Me: I know, I said it…I have been doing a lot of thinking
Her: I know you think too much
Me: I know.. I feel our old marriage is dead. I want to start over. I think we can do better this time. I want to renew our vows and start again.
Her: (she said nothing)
Me: well we are going to look for meteors a little longer.
Her: ok you should be able to see them good out there it darker that her in the city.
Me: well we will see. Good night I love you
Her: love you too (I think kind of mumbled) good night.

So this in one of those “it’s not what she said but what she didn’t say” things.
In the past she would have said something like. “There is no use in starting over. I don’t want to be back where we were…Or I can’t think about the future right now..
Or anything to not commit to a “future” but she did not say anything..

I am seeing allot more of my “old wife” returning. Like I said I just need to push a little forward and then ease off. this had kept me going in a Forward motion...
Our kisses have been lasted a little longer; she had been in a happy mood around me. She even suggested that next time we go to see something to leave son with a sitter because she is tired of him complaining and wanting to go home. (I believe in the past she has wanted son around just so her and I were not alone together...
One thing I want to add about camping… we had a skunk visit our camp site that night. Good thing we had a camper and not a tent.
So at dinner tonight I was talking to wife about how different it had been lately that when we have gone out we usually had to keep it slow because of me and my leg but now she is the one that gets tired from walking before me,, and how when son and I went biking he was the one that got tired before me.
Wife said: that’s because you have been doing allot of things and have been getting exercise. Son and I just sit around the house. I said maybe you need to go biking with son and I. She said. ‘Now you sound like my mom and she pisses me off telling me what I need to do. I know what I need to do I need to go back to curves...

I did not say anything I just dropped it...
Anyway I am going to sit tight until after son starts school next week. There is too much going on to mention anything to wife about us at the moment. HOWEVER... after son starts school I am going to tell wife that I want to forget about the past and start new. I want to renew out wedding vows and start fresh… I believe we are ready for this. Yes we still sleep in separate rooms at this time but hey... how many people in the past has been celibate until the day of their marrage?

Talk to ya all later and I did e-mail some of you but have not had a response. Did you “guys” get my mail?

Doc Love