H with 1foot out the door...LONG

[ginab1966]

Well...amazement of all amazements. We did end up going to dinner and we had a great time. I did't bring up R once and he is actually the one who did. It's wasn't in a good way but I sort of held my own.(although I'm sure my response was not the best it could've been..GOD I NEED MY DR BOOK) He said "I feel bad that I know you are trying to save our marriage and I'm not. You are committed to this and I'm not. I know you are making all these changes cuz I see them and I could really care less. I don't care who you see, or where you go cuz I'm not working on saving our marriage so it makes no difference what you do now." My response was, "What are we doing in therapy every Tuesday night?" He said "Well, I"m trying" I said "Yes, I can see that you are trying. And I really respect your efforts. The changes that you are seeing were necessary as I see how aspects of my behavior has contributed to the breakdown of our relationship. I need to work on certain things for myself." He then said "I have really enjoyed spending time with you lately. It's been fun but I just don't want you to think that theres really any hope because this marriage will most likely end" I told him that tonight I was having dinner with my husband and that I was happy about that. That's all I needed to know.

We had a terrific night. Not some romantic night by any stretch of the imagination but nice, friendly, silly, time. We shared some old stories, we talked about our dauther. It was good and I'm happy.

Tomorrow is a new day and I'll take it as it comes. That's all I can do....that and pray.

Gina B