Stop beating yourself up! And stop defending yourself.
Please, just stop and go pitch black. It will befuddle her when she realizes that she won't be able to yank your chain anymore. And this isn't for revenge, it is for your own sanity and to help you re-group.
I understand abandonment issues. So many of us have them and it just makes us needy and clingy. NOT very attractive.
And yes, texts really are sooo bogus. It's such a chickensh!t way to communicate. So do not respond in any way. Please! I'm begging you!!!
Let her sit in her own sh!t for awhile. Don't cave or you'll look weak again and you will be back to square one. Actually, you will be further back than square one.
Drop the rope. Go pitch black. Be still. Re-group. Re-focus. Do whatever you damn well please.
DO NOT CONTACT HER OR RESPOND TO HER. AT ALL!
You can do this. You will feel like crap for awhile, but you can do this. If you feel yourself weakening, come here for a few well-placed 2x4's.
