H came home around 9:00 last night. If he was surprised to see me home, he didn't let on. I greeted him nicely, and he went to bed.
Around 7:30 this morning, he took out on the Harley. I was surprised at that because he still has his hand wrapped up from the cancer surgery that was done on his hand. He still has the stitches.
So, there doesn't seem to be trouble in paradise any longer. If there was, she skanked her way back in somehow. He's into skank now, and I'm NOT a skank. So he doesn't want anything to do with me. On that note, I noticed he didn't take a shower when he got home last night, or this morning. I don't know what he's turned into. Lucky skank! lol
I'm actually doing OK being home this weekend and seeing him do his thing. I just need to remember my DH doesn't exist right now, and she can have this one.
It's like the donkey they threw in the well. Every time they threw dirt on him to bury him, he shook it off and stepped up on it. Finally the dirt pile was so high that he was able to step right out of that well. I am going to do the same thing. Every time Alien H does his thing,ignores me, treats me with disrespect, I'm going to shake it off and step up. Finally I'll be at the top of that pit, and step out. I will not be Pit-i-ful.
I am so fed up... I'm standing for this marriage. I have forgiven him for what he has done to our marriage. I have been giving him my unconditional love. I have been treating him with respect.
My H has a prestigious position in this community. He is always in the public eye. My H was always well respected. My H was a man of integrity. My H was a man who had morals.
I have been trying so hard to be the bigger/better person in all this. Not wanting to cause any trouble for him, because I know this isn't really who he is.
I feel sorry for him. Skank doesn't love him for him. She loves him for who he is in this town, and what he has to offer her ( security, a beautiful house, and a Harley to ride on). She just got D for the third time, and is fifteen years younger than H.
I loved H for him before we had anything.
It's sad. As many of you know who read my situation, he filed for D eight months ago.I responded, nothing has happened since. He continues to live at home. I hope he comes out of the fog before it goes through. It's sad.
