You know what`s really helping me with the forgiveness thing now(well-for today anyway!) is realising that everything and everybody is teaching me something. No matter what H does its ultimately for my own learning.
Not forgiving puts me in the angry zone. I really don`t want to do that to myself anymore.Its too wearing on me.
Not forgiving makes me difficult to live with. And its funny what your kids pick up. DS11 said last night that I was in good humour lately. I complimented him on being so perceptive and said yes, I was and that I was learning to be calmer.
Really sorry you`re having a heard time of it lately TIF. Wish I`d learnt all I learnt these past few weeks a year or two ago.
All this pain is helping you hugely with your spiritual growth. You can see it that way, or fight it.
