Dammit you know what, I've got to get some steel here. I'm doing this, I'm saving my marriage.
So GIMA, yeah, I don't have to be a martyr here. She does know I love her, and I haven't rejected her. W asks me about what / how we're going to tell the kids. I didn't have an answer at the time, but I'm going to tell her, that's your thing. I can help and partner in all sorts of things, but not this.
She's in southern CA for a reunion thing now. Talked to her yesterday about the kids, she called tonight to talk to them, so we talked a little bit.
Things aren't horrible, conversations are respectful and positive. She's expressed her sadness about all this so that's something. And she's agreed to go, I presume one time, to a session with me. She offers hugs.
So I think the next milestone, within the next week, is to see out this session goes. This weekend I'm going to focus on the boys. And working on the house. Productive things.
I need to keep up the exercise - haven't walked the dog as I started to do, mainly because I haven't been sleeping well and just tired. Time to bear down on the PMA. Tired of being in a funk all the time. Time to get on with it.
