he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

so im here, im moved! its really really nice, everything went well and im basically all unpacked! i cant stand clutter or boxes, i needed to do it all to feel settled! my son loves his room it look so so cute...

my in laws just came, my mil was crying, i felt so bad (remember, she lived next door to us)...i cried too, but i said, i didnt do this. she said, i know. i said, i waited until i was basically thrown out of my house, he left me, he left all of us...

its sad but really, im ok!!!! i teared up in the car, not because i was sad, but because i am so proud of myself. im really really proud. im rather strong and im realizing it.

now, im on to new things, a new life. im scoping out the scene and seeing who i can meet.

i loved my house but it was toxic, it really really was. i needed out and i feel so much better. totally disconnected from h and its fine. i dont even think about him much. so weird.