I too am very sorry. You were among the first people that posted to me in 2008. I hadn't followed closely, because I normally stick to newcomers. I heard a whisper of something being up and headed here. I actually stayed up until 2:30 in the morning to catch up on reading every last page.
You have no need to act or behave any particular way. Use this time to be gentle with yourself. I so wish this hadn't happened this way. Take care of you and the kidlets.
You aren't losing your mind. You are understandably hurt and shocked. You will hold your head up and know in your heart you did everything you could. There was no way to right the wrong he created.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.