Now, go back and REREAD what you wrote. *These* are the things you have to work on putting into your head in place of the ugly way your brain talks to you usually. I call that little voice my "muppet," which thinks he knows more than he actually does, and I have to retrain him, reteach him little by little.
A teacher friend of mine says she looks at the negative muppet voice as a call to action...like, it means she doesn't feel strong enough in whatever area Mr. Muppet is talking about, and that means she has to face whatever it is, learn whatever she needs to learn, and redirect the muppet with the new information.
PRINT YOUR LIST OUT. WHENEVER YOU START FEELING BAD/DOUBTFUL/SCARED/WORRIED/ETC., READ IT!
Wear it on your person if you can. In your wallet, somewhere with you all the time. It seems nutty, but there's something about knowing the list is with you, that you can reread it frequently, that helps the negative script start to turn. The first step is becoming aware of that voice and it's lies; the second step is reeducating that voice with the truth.
You ARE beautiful, remember that.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
