Twice now, when I've gotten a bigtime smackdown from him, I have felt that overwhelming, blinding pain, urge to run. To just get in the car, drive away and never come back. Anything to get away from the pain. It's the exact same feeling I was in the grips of when I left 2 years ago. Leaving then was understandable, but it was the coward's way out and I've since decided it was a mistake.
So twice now, I've experienced the feeling, gritted my teeth, dug in my heels and NOT run away. It's a 180 of major proportions, and it's Good for Me. In not running, I am standing up for myself and not giving him or a situation the power to make me miserable or drive me away.
It is not easy. I have to struggle and fight it every time it happens. But I'm doing it.
The trouble with having an open mind is that people put things in it.
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