S8/S9 both started school and I've been running late on being able to see D1 during the mornings. This morning D1 was sitting in a high chair eating cheerios and fruit loops and seemed very happy.
W acted somewhat nice/civil towards me this morning, but only because she wants me to bring her something she wanted from the house. Only in BPD world can you be accused of rape and abuse and then have the person ask you for $10 and $15 nitpick items from the home that they want...
I suppose I should be thankful that she acts nice/civil most of the time lately. The "acting out" periods make my head hurt trying to parse through the crazy emotionalism.
Gnosis, thank you for commenting. I suppose if my trials can serve as an example to others then they can serve some purpose other than frustration.
At the very least I've learned to evaluate the types of relationship dynamics I seem to be drawn toward. It should help in any future relationship in determining how best to proceed or whether things should proceed at all.
I've had some "ex" issues recently where a crazy ex contacted me wanting to take advantage of my own situation by leaving her marriage to jump into something with me. I told her I was not interested and she went ballistic. At least I've learned how these dynamics work and recognize I don't want to be someone's "OM" as that would be hypocritical.
I'm also keeping an eye on my interactions to make sure I don't turn to an EA or anything in my confusion. Whatever happens maybe W will respect me in the future once the fantasy pops.
"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."
