I have spent much time thinking about how much childhood really plays into this. Considering the issues that I have worked through because of this journey that stemmed from childhood, I believe it really is a major factor. Ok that and a few other reasons, like watching H become a 5 year old, listening to S compare H to a 12 year old...
Something I have read about forgivness and healing is that sometimes we have to do it in layers. You think something doesn't bother you anymore, then one day blam it hits you in the face again and you have to deal with it all over until one day that just seems to stop and there is peace. I have experienced that with some of my deeper hurts and I have wondered if that explains the cycling of the MLCer.
I know your therapist is trying to make you think and she really does seem to be doing a good job, but definatly be careful if you think her own separation is clouding her judgment. I know your H is in another room. I hated that at first here, but it did turn out to be a good thing. I think I'm ready for it to be over now but....
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
