Thanks so much for all this support! It is just so heartening. Mach, you truly have amazing insights into this whole business.
Yes, I`m living with a bad dog right now but I`m hoping he`ll turn back to the basically good doggie he used to be!
Yes, I`ve figured recently that I was drawn to this particular dog for my learning and healing within myself.
Boy, am I learning and healing...
My therapist is separated. I suspect that colours her thinking. She`s a wiase loving woman though and is helping me figure what in me triggers H`s behaviour. I`m glad of that. This is my MLC too! My journey. My time to learn.
My goal right now MB, is to stay safe and calm!
I let yesterday unfold trusting that God would help me with that. I found time to take in a nap while the kids were at tennis. I`m getting a ton of sleep lately but find this anxiety ty thing really draining.
I indulged in a little retail therapy.
Visited friends of ours that I hadn`t seen in months. They were the perfect antidote to my grey mood. Al laughter light and warmth. And the kids had a blast with their gang.
DS12 picked up a Feng Shui bible. He reckons we need it for the chi in the house. Funny, cos I`ve been thinking that lately.Something to lighten the feel of the place. Getting started on that today.
Didn`t meet H at all yesterday. That`s fine for now. Gives me space to feel what I`m feeling. I`d find pretending to be light hearted and upbeat with H just a tad difficult right now! But on the plus side I know my anger has evaporated, I can feel a stronger thread of connectedness with people, greater love, patience and calmness. Greater sadness too.
Mach, buddy, it just is so lousy that your W has such a gift in you and cannot see it. I hope she comes to her senses.
Yeah, a lot of the answers are inside of us, changes have to be made. Another common theme though, seems to be these Life Crises seem to bite harder on those who have lived through very difficult childhoods. Maybe we`ve got to try and understand the effect of that too.
