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[bluerain]

Thanks for the visit Dia, I hope that you are having a good night.

I was in the news paper again! I wrote a peice concerning approaching beached sea otters for work. So thats pretty exciting. Its the 3rd time Ive been in the paper this summer!

Sooo ready for the weekend.

I think that Im going to paint my spare room. I was thinking about a nice tan color, but I really would like something a little more bold. I tried to be brave and paint it a purple, it looks like a 5 y/o girls room. Its beautiful, just not good for me. I havent heard from H today, but hes pretty regularlly contacting me everyother day now. We had a great time on the phone yesterday. I can coast on that for a day or so.

[DCBHM]

Checking in to let you know I'm reading and hoping for the best in your situation.

[bluerain]

Thanks DCBHM! I am super excited about this weekend, I may have stretched myself a little thin for tomorrow though. I have a ton to do, including a little work. Hopefully Ill be able to get most of it out of the way early in the day.

Im still not sure if I should ask H about his intentions for his trip next month. It seems to be creeping up so quickly. And it really couldnt be happening at a much worse time. My appointment for work has been extended till oct 1 because its been so busy, and school starts back up week after next, and I have saddled myself with quite a load this semester (Before I knew H was planning this trip). So Ill be a full time student and working full time. Not excellent for DBing.

Im trying to not stress about it, but I am a little, well, Im not sure what I am, but I am thinking about it an awful lot.

[karen43]

So Ill be a full time student and working full time.

Maybe that could be a good thing? Hopefully he'll see you have a busy, full life, but maybe you can take a little time off work or study to spend with him. Could be good from a DB perspective?

Also, painting the spare room sounds like a fun project although maybe you'll be too busy for a while? How about a red color, not bright red, but that cool red color they show on those hgtv type shows? Maybe too bordelloish though? I enjoy watching decorating shows, but I have no style when it comes to that! I like sage green & lemon yellow too, but not very stylish probably! Karen

[DCBHM]

Maybe keeping busy will help your PMA? On the downside, my W began her A during a time where I was loaded down with work/school. Since you are separated that shouldn't matter.

FWIW I think you'll be fine. Just make time here and there when he wants to talk.

[bluerain]

I was thinking red too Karen! You know what they say about great minds! I have a red wall in my living room, I get lots of compliments on it. I was looking at a pretty green color too, but my bathroom is green. I love to paint, I even have some pretty red that I had a good plan for, I just never got around to it, Im trying to take semi-gloss and flat paint and do 2 inch stripes, just on one wall. I did it on a peice of wood and it looked great, so maybe Ill give that a whirl.

When H started his shennanigans it messed with my academic career ALOT! I lost my 4.0 and it screwed up one class so much I had to drop it, still havent made up for that one.

Thanks DCBHM, I know Ill be ok, but Im still nervous about it.

[bluerain]

DC, actually now that I think about it, thats when H started his A too, I wasnt working at the time, but I did have a huge courseload.

[bluerain]

I just talked to H, he is flying in for sure. Ugh I just wish that I could read his mind. I dont understand why hes making this visit.

I just found out a couple, mutual friends, are pregnant now. Which is great news, they have been trying for a long time, and will be great parents, they have a wonderful M, and I am so happy for them. But as happy as I am for them, Im sad for me. Im at an age where I should be doing this, almost all of my friends have kids. I can only think of one that doesnt, but at least she has a stable relationship!

Throwing a little pity party over here I guess.

[DCBHM]

At the very least his visit will be a chance for you to test the waters. See how you both interact in person. Speculation can drive you crazy I know.

I'm hoping for good news for you. My trial is scheduled for mid-September so maybe we'll both get good news.

[bluerain]

DCBHM, Thanks for your well wishes. I hope that things go well for you too.

I went on an extra long hike yesterday and found an otter. Grr. I was not prepared for that at all! I had to drag it back over 2 miles, it weighed about 40lbs. And it dripped all over me. Yuck, yuck, yuck. My whole body hurts today. Im so glad that I didnt get any calls today! Just had a beautiful day on the beach, moving a little slow though because my entire upper body is painful today. Probabaly will go to bed early tonite!

I also found out a statewide paper picked up what I wrote in the local paper last week! Its pretty exciting!