F*ck, I hate the moments when I remember how he would have gone above and beyond to ensure I was happy...sometimes I am endeared by his checking in on me and trying to connect and gain my trust. But, really, once he gets an ounce of gratification, he just takes it and moves on and I am still on my own.
I am okay. Just writing something that makes me nostalgic but it is a project I am excited about...so, it is worth it.
