Kevin, it's not the fact that you are noticing girls, that's normal. It's the fact that you actually post it here and then in the same post mention how you are not looking for someone to be a new W.

I mean, you are the only one who really can't see what you are doing. You are so transparent.

Those insecurities are what's killing you right now.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER