Sorry to hear about your set back, Dave. I wish there was something I could say that would help your sitch. From you previous posts it is apparent your W sees the changes in you. Who knows what else is going on in her mind. One of the things that I remember from MC was my W was very much afraid that she would loose herself again if we reconciled. Wonder if your W has some of the same thoughts.
BTW I took your advice and started working with a DB coach. Still have my IC but have cut way back as I'm doing much better. I needed the IC to get me through a tough patch in my life regardless of my M R. The IC has changed her posistion sense we lasted talked and know thinks anything is posible - just make sure not to loose yourself. (good advice)
The DB coach is great and has helped keep me going in the right direction. I graduated to becoming friends which is really fun. I get to laugh with my wife again - maybe for the first time in years.
Rather tired today (6 hours on the road) so forgive me if I'm less than coherient.
Good luck over the next couple days. Still pulling and praying for you! You are an insperation regardless of how this turns out.
_________________________ Me-41 W-39 M-15 yrs T-17 yrs D-12 S-9 S-8 B 5/08 S 1/09