Are you still on holiday? Hon... just for now, stop dealing with all of this and recharge. It will all be there when you get back.
Just for now. Lay in the sun. Love your kids. Let the beauty of the place on earth you are, fill your soul with peace and calm. Nothing has changed. You just know more now. Breathe. Deal with this and all the relatives, friends, family, and fall out when you have given yourself a chance to process all of this confirmation of what you've known but hoped wasn't true.
Jeff, as always, knows what you need.... feel your feelings and begin to heal for a bit. Wrap yourself in the love of all the friends who are here for you and pamper yourself. I know you "knew"... I know you are strong... but I also know what you gave up and nothing could've prepared you for how much this hurts.
(((((((((((sunshine))))))))))
~DD (under yet another, this time un-gooogleable alias)
