ok, ok, ok...so some things are different..(ok a lot is different than during our seperation) and perhaps part of the reason that things aren't so extremely different is that h never really was all that gone to begin with and it was me that pushed him away so therefore I am the one who is different.
I think I need to just get away and regroup and get out of this train of thinking so damn much...perhaps I read too many threads over the past couple of days.
