na ni na ni poo poo!! just cause it's fun to say .
I know that I can and should find a sitter to take advantage of...there is a very nice family that lives next door with a 12 year old girl..I've spoken to her a few times about sitting and she's game...perhaps a sat afternoon for a few hours (h usually get's home by 1) would do me wonders. But then h's slow time IS comming and if it's anything like last year he didn't leave the house til 10am and was often home by 3.
sons pre school offers extended day once a week, today is his first try at it. We'll see how it goes.
life is short and the kids wont be little forever soon enough I'll be wondering why I was so stressed and miss them tugging at me (ya right!) for now I take pleasure in simple things like h gettting home early enough for me to leave before the little one goes to bed, or a new soap or sweater.
I really would love to get back to the gym...they do have a day care for members but I think the schedule conflicts with sons school...I drop him off at 8:30 and pick up at 11:30 wich would be a great time to go as dd didn't complain about waiting in the kids room (day care) for me but I don't think they open til 10 wich would make my work out a rush to get back to son...I can go at night and probably should...going just after putting dd to bed (h puts son to bed) would enable me to get home early enough that I don't feel like the night has been stolen from me and I'd feel better about myself to boot, but ya know how those things work just gotta start.
things are actually pretty good around here...I'm not as afraid to initiate hugs or sit next to h (that comes from his intiating a bit more) and he seems more relaxed. Doing a good job not taking things personally but admit there are still some fears and doubts of trust running around suppose that's par for the course though.
well just wanted to say howdy and keep myself off pg 3 at least for the morning anyway.
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