Hi, I wanted to extend a welcome and say that I'm sorry that you find yourself here. I also wanted to bump your post up for some of the more experienced DB folk to comment.
I remember about a year ago, I thought about ending my marriage. I had fallen "out of love" and was pretty unhappy. One day, I looked at my H and fell back into love... funny how that happens - and now I find myself here wondering what I could have done. But, the important thing to remember is that the past is just that - past. Focus on yourself and look towards the future. I re-read parts of the DR book almost everyday and reading people's posts here gives me hope and a realization that I'm not alone. I wish you well!
HIW
HIW M 35 H 37 D 5, D 2 Married 1996 Dating 1992 Met 1988 EA/PA started March 2009 Bomb 6/16/2009 Separated 6/23/2009