After 8+months of limbo and 5+months of me being out of the house, W dropped another bomb yesterday in MC saying she is finished and doesn't want to be married to me anymore because she cannot see a light at the end of the tunnel and it has been 8 months already. She would not say that she wanted a divorce or that she was going to do that anytime soon, although she didn't say she wasn't either.
Needless to say, I am pretty devastated at the moment but I am not giving up hope and I am going to work tirelessly on myself to make myself better and more appealing either to her or someone else, but I desperately would rather it be option #1. I still love my W and want us to be a family, but I **HAVE** to learn to detach. I went back to our MC today by myself (W has one on Mon) to discuss what happened yesterday and where do I go from here. I told her that I am not giving up hope and that I will continue to pursue keeping the marriage alive, but that I will do that mainly by trying to better myself. She agreed with me and applauded me for saying this and that she will help keep me accountable and directed on that path.
Can anyone out there (puppy, 25, cg, sandi, anyone) give me some advice and some support on making it through this? My hope is still alive, but it took a major blow yesterday!