Serenity13,

I feel like that more often than not. It is hard switching mental gears to a new way of thinking. I am trying. If I wasn't I wouldn't now be going to AA and listening to Codependent No More and reading what people are saying.

I just also still pray for my M. But changing my thought process is taking more work than I thought it would. But I still have to do it anyways to be healthy for me, the kids, W, and everyone else.

I will admit, it is scary being out there in the world alone and it is lonely at times. So I pray and I am getting involved with things.

Good post BTW.

Kevin

Me 36, W 37
M: 08/02/97
D13, D9
1st Bomb 02/08
Reconciled 04/08
2nd Bomb: 09/08
W filed for D 02/04/09
Separated 03/09
D dismissed 06/09/09
Still separated...