K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I admit. I am an alcoholic who is trying to stay sober. I admitted that at AA.

It seems as though I have an addictive personality. Seems hard to argue with that. I have defeated a lot of addictions in my past. Smoking and drugs as a teen, looking at innapropriate content on TV and internet in my earlier years. I defeated that. Alcohol, I am working on defeating that.

My W? I do love her and I am trying to follow the bible on not giving up on my S. You can say I pick and choose what I want. Nobody is perfect. But I am choosing to not go the wrong route on this as far as our covenant M. It is a covenant M. It is not some silly little dribble from attorneys and judges on paper that determine whether or not you are M in the eyes of God. An earthly D has nothing to do with what God joined together and said let NO MAN separate it. Therefore, why would I respect a judge granting an earthly D and an earthly remarriage when the bible clearly says that is adultery. The judge is out of his or her mind to think they have authority over what God put in place.

Now I have to respect the laws and follow them and I do. I am very much a law abiding citizen. But it doesn't mean I have to have respect for the earthly decision that some judge thinks over rules what God put in place. Liberal judges have just decimated the foundation of M in this country. Its a real shame.

None the less, if I have to stand alone, I have to stand alone. But at least I know I am keeping my covenant which nobody can break regardless of what sins are committed.

It is not falling on the sword. It is trying to do what God has commanded us to do. It is hard. It would be far easier to say to heck with it all and start dating again. I almost did. Infact at one point, I did go on a date earlier on because I felt like what is the point of standing. But then it was emphasized to me again that I am standing for my covenant M that God put in place and I am standing in the gap while my prodigal S is out doing the prodigal worldly thing. How in the world is that easy to do? It is the hardest thing to do that their is.

Kevin