It is a hard fight, Harpo - maybe the toughest one you'll go through in your life - but it's such a rare opportunity to learn things about yourself that you would never have received before. When it starts to hurt or feel overwhelming, I would suggest that you allow yourself to feel it - if it feels like too much - just ask for the load to be lightened a bit - and allow yourself to feel less of it for a while...but it is important to feel, process and let go. Every time you do, you get stronger - which is something a lot of people outside the sitch don't really see - that crying, feeling the sorrow and the pain, is part of what makes one stronger through all of this - much like tearing a muscle, making it hurt, to build it up.
Keep checking in here - and keep posting to others - the more you interact with this community, the more it helps you.
