K4D Rising #4

[25yearsmlc]

My brother's 2nd marriage was in the Catholic Church with a full mass, and it was also her 2nd marriage and they both brought 3 d's into the m for a total of 6 kids...in a Catholic Church without either of them getting an annulment. (I believe the first marriages did not take place in Catholic churches, but I could be wrong.)

But even if you were totally correct, if my h deserted me for good and remarried and THEN God sent a kind loving man into my life, I might very well not choose to be alone the rest of my life. I might very well be flexible rather than trying to prove something to others or become holier than thou and turn away from a gift from heaven. Maybe I would marry and maybe not. I can't say.

But I sense a "I'll fall on my sword" attitude from you b/c you honestly find that the path of least resistance. I don't believe for a minute that you are capable of waiting for her patiently, for weeks or months, let alone the years it would take for you and your wife to really get it. You haven't been able to back off enough yet... Maybe her heart will soften but without something like Retrovaille, I can't see it.

So again I say, focus on what you have. B/C when you focus on what you don't have but think you need.... it really is crazy. Reflect on that b/c it comes from a mind greater than mine for sure. It's profound and with effort you can be too. Try to think about it.

Sometimes I think you are very UNGRATEFUL to God.
God could give you a million bucks and bless your d's with complete health AND HAPPINESS, send you great advice from 188 people.... but if your w isn't coming home soon, you'd still be miserable, correct? That says a lot.

As for AA, you have to DO the program, not just attend meetings. Going to them is a start, and I congratulate you on that. But As they say "work the program b/c the program works"...

j-