I am so glad you are willing to take down the wall you put up and give this a real chance.
I know you have every right to end your marriage, there were enough 'reasons' and justifications to do so. But you are choosing not to (at least not now) and that is awesome, to me.
I am glad you could look at his actions without filtering them through your hurt/anger. I think sometimes that is hard to do. I know that the LBS' often do the opposite. We cling to any positive word we hear to continue to give us hope, when if we looked at actions, we would see we were clinging to nothing.
Your case is the opposite. He was trying to show you his sincerity but you viewed it through the filter of hurt and mistrust. Now that you had time to step away and look with new eyes, I am glad that you like what you see.
And good for you not going out with the doctor. I am sure it was tempting given all you have been through. And I would bet it helped you see how a lot of these things get started...
