this thread isn't dead yet, but I kinda get the feeling some of you are afraid to say boo on it for fear of closing it...don't do that..I don't want to have to talk to myself til it's locked.
so despite a minor set back or rather argument the other night...things are still going along just fine.
I think alot of the problems are mine and not h's. I am afraid and every once in a while it shows...that fear pulls me away from h...h doesn't retreat he simply lays back for a bit...but always does ask..r u ok? it's just when I actually open the gates to the firey hell within and share some of the "no I'm NOT ok" with him that things get a bit icky round here...gotta give him credit though..he's hanging in there.
so asside from the ssm bit things are very good...I think that despite all my rantings and complaints..I'm am happy with h..I suppose I just try to find the neg so that if things go wrong I can take the attitude of "well I'm not losing much here anyway" time to get off my damn soap box and admit to myself and others that yes I am happy damn it! yes I do have a great h! sure he screwed up but we are after all only human right?
