Different Places - Different Spaces

[Uncool Cat]

I haven't posted in quite some time. I've had ups and downs in the past month. There were times when I thought W was interested in someone else, but I still really don't know. I have no hard evidence, and I've looked believe me. I'm not going around with the rose colored glasses.

There have been other times that I thought things were going really well. My oldest son had a birthday. She asked me to come to the house to help with the spend-the-night-party for his birthday. We wrangled 8, 9-year-old boys for the evening. I think I did a pretty good job and she seemed happy.

Her mother asked me to come to the "family" birthday party. I told her I would be happy to, but it was at W's house and I would not come unless invited by her. Of course she didn't invite me. No big surprise there. Her mother wants me to "tell W how much you care for her; how much you love her." She doesn't understand that this kind of pressure doesn't work at all.

I just try to be as helpful and nice to W as I can without making any waves.

What's driving me crazy is all the limbo. I have to say I'm actually tired of waiting for the divorce. I'm not going to do anything to push it, but I'm just tired of waiting. More than one friend has suggested I go out on a date. Even if I wanted to, there are so many inherent problems. The date would ask, "Are you divorced?" and I would say no. Besides, according to almost every divorce busting article I have read. This would cause problems.

The other limbo is at my job. I have been working for months on a deal to purchase an insurance agency. It seems to be in it's final stages, but that's what I thought in May, and then in June, and then in July. Right now we are waiting on a business appraiser to finish his analysis.

It's like my personal life is on hold, my business life is on hold, everything is on hold. I want to live. I want a new life. Ahhhhhhh!!!!

I don't want anyone to get me wrong. I have been GLing. I started nutri-system. I've lost a few pounds. I started playing volleyball on Fridays with a singles group from church. I go to a divorce care class on Monday nights. I spend lots of time with my boys (two weekdays every week and every other weekend). I guess I just miss the company of a woman.

That's all I have for now. Give me shout if you have time. And, Keep up the DB.