I know that I need a break from time to time, even more so when not feeling well. This head cold got the best of me today...seems it may be more than just a cold as I found myself with a headache and nasuea today (and just incase you come up with the same question as h, no I am not preg the fact that I know for certain is simply adding to my not feeling well if ya know what I mean) so after a trip to the bathroom to get sick, I called my mother to see if she could come relieve me for a while so I could rest. still not feeling great but it was nice to take a nap.
h does have his football wich takes him away almost every sunday during the fall and winter. Now he could say that he only goes to 9 games but those games are an all day event and when the game is away he is indisposed watching it on tv. Since there isn't something on tv that I MUST watch that enables me to put him in a position to keep the kids away from me and there isn't something that I do each saturday or whatever day that "forces" him to be bound...crap the point is even if I did have something to do or some place to go...he is not there like I am for him to be free to do them. he doesn't have to make arraingments to go anywhere he just goes and knows that I will be here. If I want to or have to go somewhere he doesn't make the time for it...I have to find a sitter...that doesn't seem fair to me.
I've just been tired lately and I guess allowing myself to feel bad. guess there's still some things I need to let go of.
